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Why I should’ve been born on the countryside and not in the city?

At first I wasn’t sure whether I should come back to Finland or not (I did have booked air plane tickets already to Finland), and when I arrived I just wanted desperately to fly back to London.

Right now I’m sitting at terrace looking at the green environment – grass, bushes, trees – and beyond that the blue water shining by the sun, listening nothing but birds chatting each other echoing in the forest (and my keyboard which I’m typing). Also my uncle’s silly cat trying to get my attention and still leaving when I want to take it to my lap, funny cat this Vili (the cat’s name).

Perfect reminder why I love my country, Finland – the nature! You can’t have that in London, not the same way as here. You can go to parks but we Finns kind of need the forest where you can hide and escape your worries, at least for a while. I can finally feel the peace in my mind.

My summer cottage has always been my safe place. I don’t know how but here all my struggles disappears and I can actually find a solution what ever troubles me. Just like now. This place, the treasure, is something unique you can’t find in London. I’ll be in London anyway real soon, so soon that I don’t even notice the time passing by, and spending another long year there. The time is precious and the time in here, at the summer cottage, is limited. I better make the most out of this summer.

The reason why I should’ve been born on the countryside is because this is where I truly belong – in the nature, in the forest – but my life is elsewhere. I don’t struggle living in the city, but only in the countryside where I can admire the beautiful nature I’m at home – where I can always find shelter when ever I need it.

Exploring London: Camden Town/Camden Market













Take a leap of faith

I know it’s been a while since I’ve written anything on my blog…over a month I think. I’ve been busy, surprisingly student life doesn’t leave you to slack off too much…if you want to succeed in your studies or at least not to fail.

The last month has been the hardest that I’ve ever experienced (4 assignments and 1 exam within 5 weeks). It definitely gets worse and worse every year. I’m already worried for my next year’s studies how am I able to keep up with everyone, and more importantly push myself to get those good grades.

At the beginning of March I went on a quick trip to Finland since I’d already got myself ticket to Avenged Sevenfold’s concert. Also I have become a godmother! My godson’s christening (ristiäiset) was during that time, and I finally saw him in person. ❤ Cutest baby boy, so tiny! But loud as a siren… I got a good exercise for my hands since I hold him almost an hour to make him fall asleep. Heart melts when you see a sleeping baby, so peacefully quiet.


I’ve made video of the concert to my youtube channel. A7X!

Right now I’m in Finland in a two-week holiday, just the right time when everyone in London enjoys the summer weather, and it’s just the beginning of April! Nothing like Finland during spring. The day I left it was at least +23 degrees, and next day on Sunday even +25! Finnish girls that I’ve been get to know to were having a picnic, and I was so jealous wishing to go back to London right away.

Why am I even in Finland? And not travelling around somewhere in Europe? I wish, it would be perfect to go around Europe from London but I still haven’t succeed to make this plan true. Since I’m going for another year to Linnanmäki to work for the summer I had to come in Finland to train for the job during my spring break.

To be honest, it’s so easy to stick to the job that I got. I don’t have to do the effort to look for thousands of jobs which still doesn’t guarantee me a place (I know, I’ve been there). I like working there, we have a great atmosphere with my co-workers and we enjoy each others company. I guess, that’s why I decided to work there, again. Still, I need to start consider leaving Finland behind, and staying in London more permanently.

It’s nice to be in Finland when you can see your family and friends. Yet, I’ve realized something: more longer I’ve been living in London, more distant this country has become to me. Even though I’ve visited many times in Finland whilst living in London, it still doesn’t feel the same anymore. Does it feel like home? I don’t know really. It’s hard to explain what I’m trying to tell here, but…I think London has “stepped a foot on me”. I’ve got the taste of adventure, travelling, and I know I won’t be coming back to Finland anymore, at least not to stay permanently. I’ve been asked this many times:

“Do I wish to go back to Finland?” or something like “Am I going back to Finland after graduation?”

The answer is NO.

This is a scary situation because I think Finland is kind of like a safety net for me where to go to, if something goes wrong. I don’t want to go back to Finland after moving to London. But it scares me how am I managing when I need to find a job and reasonably cheap place to live (if I’m staying in London). That’s why I cannot think of going back, to Finland. That’s what it feels like. Going backwards. I need to move forward. I cannot go back, I need to set myself out of the comfort zone. Even though I’m already living alone in a huge city without any support from others, I can’t help myself but to wonder what is my future going to hold for me. I keep myself thinking that I can do it, and everything is going to turn just fine for me. After all I’ve come to this far. Just need a little push.

To take a leap of faith.


If there’s something I regret for studying in UK instead of being a student in Finnish university, I’ll be missing the fun what there’s in Finnish university life. Sure, we have freshers-parties here, but so does in Finland as well. What upset me was that I won’t be able to attend sitsit

It’s traditional dinner party in Finland and Sweden, and usually held by university students. People eat, have drinks and sing drinking songs – the most known song is Helan går. This party is also quite formal, unless there’s a certain theme to dress accordingly.

Also Finnish university students have these special student jump suits, which I have mentioned on my previous blog post. You wear them in many student parties or events. What’s so special about these jump suits? You add to them badges which we call ‘opiskelijamerkit’ by stitching them to the jump suit. I also wanted ones as well…

Things have changed now: I have been in sitsit in London! And I do have student badges that I have stitched to my university hoodie.

Yes, there actually was sitsit in here, London. I found out about this organization for Finnish student living in England, ISO ry, and they made this happen. The dinner was great, we had lots of fun and lots of drinks – I even had my favorite: salmarishotti.

Every time the waiters came we had to yell ‘poliisi’, because we wasn’t sure if we were allowed to drink our own alcohol

Here’s a video from my youtube channel what kind of badges you can have (pretty much anything, but there are also special design which you cannot find from any stores).


Happy Shrove Tuesday/Pancake Day/Fat Tuesday/Mardi Gras/Laskiaistiistai to everyone! 😀

Here in Britain people eat lots of pancakes, but in my country, Finland, we eat these special buns you can call semla (Finns call it laskiaispulla). We put whip cream and jam between the bun when you cut it in to half.

We also eat pea soup, this fat filled soup…doesn’t sound good? I used to dislike it but now I love it! Especially when you add mustard in it. Yes, mustard.

Usually on Shrove Tuesday we go out in the snow, take our sleds and go slide with them. Even when I was in school we were taken to slide with sleds. It was fun! 🙂

These days I also make vlog. Here you can watch how I baked semlas/laskiaispullat and see how to do it yourself:

Moomins in London!


It was a sunny Monday. I was supposed to study but looking outside that weather made me feel I cannot miss this chance to go out and enjoy the sun.

This was my plan: Moomin shop! I’d been thinking to go there quite a long time, and now I finally decided to see is it really as good as it should be from Finnish point of view.


I took a bus 29 to take me to Covent Garden where the Moomin shop was.

Waiting for the bus. It was really windy.






I have this mug!


Tove Jansson – The Finnish creator of Moomins

What’s this? (ARTBOX)

Japanese! Pocky! ❤ ❤


More Moomins! 😀


Challenge accepted! – Start a vlog!

I’ve been eager to start my own video blog. Now I finally have my youtube channel and first video downloaded! 🙂

“New year, new me”

What has happened so far since the clock turned to midnight, and we said goodbye to 2016 and welcomed 2017?

This year has kept me busy from the start. After I arrived back to London I had three days to finish my assignment: my first practical report. Also there was coming a presentation two weeks after that.

I manage to go through that even though I was nervous and anxious as usual. I still remember the feeling when it was going to be my turn to stand in front of others – heart beat rose very fast, like it was going to explode, hands started sweating and shaking, and my breathing was almost like I was going to have asthma attack. It just happened so fast that I wasn’t able to control it. Yet, I managed to calm myself because I knew I had prepared well (I knew what I need to say) so I wouldn’t have to be afraid of forgetting something, and that’s one of my problems I have with presentations.


The most obvious one with me is eye contact. Every time I look at others and see them looking at me I look away. It’s like a reflex. I don’t like to be the center of others, I’m always the one at the background. It makes me feel like I have done something wrong or embarrassing to people to draw their attention to me. That’s why presentations are hard for me. In the end I did surprisingly well, and I’m glad I went through that.


Flying back and forth London-Helsinki during the last holiday both times it was sunny (my eyes almost got blind from that brightness), and I could see beautiful cotton candy clouds just under the airplane. Photographers dream, I would say.

❤ ❤

Speaking of cotton candy, I had the chance to taste Syrian cotton candy from my flatmate after I’d come back. I call it frozen hair because it does look like one.

I had to admit, tho, it tastes good

This year’s theme seems to be rock and heavy metal. Not long time ago, like a week ago I went to a bar where there was heavy metal night with a Finnish girl who had invited me to go there. I must say I was happily surprised of the music they were playing there. Even though there are rock/heavy metal bars in London, they’re not that good…they’re usually playing some random British (I think) rock music which I’ve never heard of.

Actually it’s hard to find real heavy metal music, mostly because it’s more like hard rock, and the people are like ‘Yeah, heavy metal!!’ and I just do the face palm. If someone knows about real heavy metal it’s a Finn. I would say we have the best heavy metal bands.


Of course, this night wasn’t only a one time thing. One of my dreams, that I thought I’d never could think of coming true, happened: Black Sabbath! I saw Ozzy Osbourne live in London. I know! Still can’t believe it! And this isn’t ending here, since I’m going to (finally!) Avenged Sevenfold’s concert to Finland! Already eagerly waiting for that! But I need to focus on my studies…



There was my team’s first football match of the year last Wednesday. I had to admit I missed football during my holiday. We have been struggling since we lost our coach but we have managed, although we are a bit messy team. I mean, at first we had issues to even get the 11 required players for this game (we got 12).




This was the first time I played the best I can do. What can I say middle midfield is my ‘home’. It just requires lot of running from me, and my asthma doesn’t always allow me to run my fastest pace. Still, I felt like that kid in me who used to love football had reborn.


We won that match 9-0, good way to start the year.

Oh by the way, today is Runeberg’s day in Finland. Runeberg is our national poet, and when we celebrate his day we eat these pastries what we call Runeberg’s tarts.


Material girl

It’s been almost a month past in the year 2017.

I had a great holiday in Finland, but getting back to the university lifestyle has gone slowly… Right now I don’t have much assignments due (there’s a presentation coming up next week), but I know I should start revising for exams and do my essays on time because I’m going to have a tight schedule during spring – especially on March! So basically this year has started negligently.

My flatmate had had her birthday two days before my arrival to London. I had gotten her a gift. I thought I wanted something Finnish related, and what all of us Finns want? That’s right, Iittala! A Finnish brand of many kind of design such as the one I got as a gift: Kastehelmi candle holder (kastehelmi means a dew pearl), because I know she loves candles. ;)<3


Here’s a picture of Kastehelmi candle holders – Aren’t those beautiful?

I have also treated myself with materialistic stuff…a lot. Even today I went to Finnish church for second hand sale, and well…I got carried away.


Every Finn also desires for Moomin (Muumit) themed stuff -like I found this Little My (Pikky Myy) mug. Little My happens to be my favorite character from Moomin. I love how she’s so tiny energetic troublemaker who thinks things can be solved by hitting them with a frying pan.


I have always wanted myself a japanese style kimono/morning coat, and now I finally found one, only for £3!! ❤ I remember my grandma having a coat like that, and I just wanted it to be mine…



I always seek for books in second hand sales


I also got these two books as a Christmas present

Continuing with a Fantastic Beasts theme, when I was shopping in Finland I found this T-shirt:



“How ’bout a magic trick?”

Only because Joker is my favorite criminal, and there’s no better Joker than Heath Ledger…

Also I have become a collector of mugs. The white one with a ‘poem’ is from Buffy the Vampire Slayer episode in which there were creatures called Gentlemen making everyone mute and stealing people’s hearts… I also have Game of Thrones themed mug, and Harry Potter mug which changes after you pour hot water into it (so cool!). The blue mug has written “I may live in England, but my heart belongs to Leijonat” that definitely shows my enthusiasm for ice hockey.

Today also finally arrived this F.R.I.E.N.D.S. themed shirt:

“You’re my lobster” ❤

“Dress like RACHEL. Clean like MONICA. Flirt like JOEY. Geek like ROSS. Sing like PHOEBE. Joke like CHANDLER.”

Last but not least, this perfect poster for our flat’s kitchen:


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