I discovered a lot in me last year. It was a scary experience if I’m honest. There where some good things as well, but…
I want to be a better person this year. For my sake. For other’s sake. I understand now I’m not alone anymore. There’s people around me.
If someone had told me 10 years ago that I’d survive, I’d live to this day – living on my own in London, having friends from other countries – would I’ve believed? I don’t think so.
I’ve discovered strengths in me. I actually want to work hard, dream – even if it didn’t happen eventually. But I’d still try. I understand that know, I understand I am capable of breaking walls. There’s a new world for me.
I’ve discovered that mental health is no joke. Even for me. I thought I was alright and I was managing with my life, hence I never then thought of getting help. I might be strong to getting through with that shit hole inside my mind, but it’s not over. It’s my life.
I’ve decided to end this blog. I enjoyed this much, but the purpose of me starting this didn’t work out in the end. I mean, I just travel back and forth between England and Finland, so much of the travelling…
As much as I tried to share my life in here, life gets pretty quickly ‘boring’. What I mean, there’s not much to share in everyday life. At least for me, in written words.
When I like to write something, it usually comes within me, my mind, my heart. I enjoy writing when I can put my thoughts into words. When I can express myself. That’s why I need to end this one. So that, maybe, one day I can start something else. Share with you what I truly feel, what I actually think.
But now, I need to put my life together.